Appointment and new plan

I don't remember if I mentioned last week that I had an appointment with my fertility specialist? If I forget then I'm sorry because this appointment changed everything. We (I say we because my husband went with me) were going there to ask that I be put on birth control pills or metformin to help with the symptoms of PCOS. As you may have guessed, the doctor didn't think putting me on the pill would help much as our goal was still to have another child. He asked me a bunch of questions about how my cycle is now and said that I am basically fixing myself by losing the weight. Only problem is that I still do not ovulate and I am stuck, 15 pounds away from the goal we set in February.

As we were discussing options, I did something I had promised myself I would never do... I broke down and cried in a doctor's office. I think this may have been what changed the tone of the conversation (not that the doctor wasn't great even before that). He asked if we would be willing to keep trying to lose weight until October and if by then I was still stuck with pounds to lose, we would start the treatment anyway.

In the span of two weeks we went from, getting rid of all things baby to having a new plan to conceive our second child. By October we will be on fertility medications with ultrasounds to monitor progress and ensure that I ovulate and therefore time our "encounters" (haha) properly.

For the first time in months, I feel like I have hope again, like maybe it's still possible for us, that the dream is not quite dead yet. There's a light at the end of the tunnel and for once, it's not the train coming to hit us.

In the coming weeks, you will be hearing a lot about my weight loss adventure and probably about my cycle as well.

Have a good week everyone and see you all next week!