Decisions and feelings

I have to admit that I have not been very positive about the outcome of our "quest for baby" for a while now. While on vacation, I had what you would call a mini meldown and decided to sell all of my baby items so I wouldn't inadvertantly see them every time I am looking for something. I went through everything and realized I couldn't sell everything so, we have decided to sell only what we wouldn't mind getting "newer models" of. I've advertized said items on numerous bulletin boards, made posters and everything and so far... nobody's interested. I tried to sell baby clothes but that didn't work out the way I wanted it to, I just opened one of the plastic bins with my son's clothes in it and they still smelled like he did as a baby so I was not able to put any of the clothes up for sale.

We have also decided to take a break from trying to conceive. My PCOS is out of control right now and I have pain from the time I should be ovulating until the time I get my period, not fun let me tell you. I put in a call to my RE's office, asking to be put on the pill or metformin or something that can make this less painful. I also remember that I became pregnant with Nathan exactly one month after stopping the pill in 2005, guess I'm hoping it will do the same this time around.

How do I feel about these decisions... They were not easy decisions to make, I cried a lot and my husband didn't know what do to with me but now, I am at peace with them. Taking some time off trying to conceive will be great for my mental health, and we know it doesn't mean we are giving up. My dream is still to have another baby, unfortunately, it is not happening as soon as we wanted so what's another few months?